Do I Miss You?

When I see the first dawn’s light I think of you all tucked in tight
When I hear the first winds blow I remember the sounds of your first hello
I touch blue fleece and caress your soft cheeks
And remember the evening that we first met
I was very tired and you were very wired
We both wanted milk though I wanted cereal with mine
And I sat by your side and wondered why I rhymed

The last time I saw you the last moment you were mine
I hoped for the best and feared for the times
That I would not be there to hold you and kiss you goodnight
But prayed that your mother would make up for my fright

Of loving you too much, of not letting you part
Of saying the wrong things, of breaking your heart
But seeing your face and knowing your smiles
Will buoy my soul for the longest of whiles

The last time I saw you not years but just weeks
I cried when I saw you, my heart on two feet
In little blue jeans with a car and a ball
You said “Hello Chachie” and again I knew all

The reasons I placed you so far from my house
Were the reasons you know the difference between cat and a mouse
You new Mom and Dad can show you the world
And show you the love of the universe unfurled

I love you always, and in my heart you’ll stay
A sweet little baby all powdered and gray
But in my minds eye and my soul and hands
I love you growing older, into a young man

I grieve for the baby I placed on that day
But I sing for the boy that I share always
The child I know is not the babe I remember
But both live within me from spring to December

Credits: Contributed by: Charity Myhre *birth-mama to Tyler 10-30-2000*