Torn
For many years I have wondered, After 19 years, my immediate questions are answered. Your Mom is a wonderful woman, I know that I should be grateful,
So I wait and I hope and I pray for strength, One day, you may feel differently, © Jean
“Where are you and are you okay?”
I thought I’d find comfort in those answers,
When I located my darling one day.
As I know where you are and that yes, you’re okay.
But it doesn’t provide the comfort I’d longed for …
Not totally, anyway.
Who has answered my questions and calmed some of my fears,
But your lack of interest in my attempts to connect
Overwhelm me and heighten my tears.
As I know more than so many like me.
And while I did what I could to prepare for “the worst”
It was a reunion that was all I could see.
From the One who has carried me through to today.
I pray that He helps you too, my dear.
So you know that your fears are okay.
And if that day comes, I’ll be here.
I will always love you deeply, my darling.
May that love overshadow my tears.