Dauntless: Not to be intimidated; fearless; intrepid; bold.
It’s taken me quite a while to finally pick my word or theme for 2015. As a list ran through my head and got scribbled on paper and every single one got crossed out I started to worry. I didn’t want to follow someone else’s path. I wanted to be true to myself and to our journey. So here it is, almost the end of January. I’ve already done my first half marathon of the year. We had our first visit of 2015 with LT’s birth mom and family. It feels like so much has already happened but more visits and races will dominate 2015. This will be the year of DAUNTLESS.
I must admit I may have watched the movie “Divergent” recently. The main character Tris chooses to join the group or faction called Dauntless. When I saw this group and the risks they took I thought they were pretty awesome. Or dare I say bad a**. Tris doesn’t automatically click with members in the group but finds her place and proves herself. Not only to those in Dauntless but to herself.
In past years I’ve worried about what could be, Sometimes, it’s enough to stop me from taking risks and pursuing my hopes and dreams. I know there have been times when I’ve held off on being exactly whom and what I want to be. This year, all bets are off. There will be no more sitting idly hoping and wishing for things to be different. I won’t allow our fate to be determined by others. Be it with a second adoption, a choice in career, continuing my degree, another deployment for my husband or anything else I will be brave, fearless and bold. After all, we survived 2014 and it had some insanely brutal moments. Oh whom am I kidding; every year has had some crazy intense trials.
In 2012 we experienced more heart wrenching moments due to things within our adoption journey than I’d like to admit. Luckily, we also had the most joyful of moments. It changed my views on our moving forward with a second adoption. To be quite honest, if LT’s birth mom and family wasn’t as amazing and loving as they are I don’t know that I’d even be brave enough to come to the realization that yes, I do in fact see us as a family of 4. Sooner than later.
Be brave. A short phrase my mom has said to me time and time again no matter the situation. Be brave, a phrase I used to roll my eyes at all the time. After all those years I can see why she did that. What a great theme and personal motto to have. Little did she know that all these years later it would be in the front of my mind and now it paired up with a movie to bring my motto for 2015.
I will be dauntless in pursuing another adoption. Dauntless in the face of parenting a super willful smart little boy.
