September 18th 2005

The pics of Tara and us came out pretty well, I'm glad of that, so we can always remember when we all first met. I'm still pretty anxious about the weekend visit she is having with her former Fosterparents. I hope it was just a normal deal that maybe she does once in a while, or she was even doing it to kinda say goodbye to them before she comes to be with us. I really am just afraid they will decide they want to adopt her or she'll decide she'd rather be with them than us. I can't wait to call her tomorrow, I hope she's home and talks with us for a bit. I'm really missing her, and the pics of us with her remind me of the fun we all had together and I just hope she also had a good time. I hope she wants to move with us, I'm so sorry she'll be so far away from the people and things she knows, but I think it's for the best to be away from her Sister. I can't believe she told her not to be adopted! I'm so glad she told the Fostermom so she could talk to her about it. I know moving is scary, but I really think we could all be a real family together. I just feel like this has all been so right. DH feels it too, he's so confident about her and has been just about the whole time. On another subject, I know adoption is all I talk about, but we went out to lunch with Tim today, and he's off for Iraq on Monday night. He thinks it will be at least a year, and maybe even longer. He's pretty rough around the edges, but he's a good friend still and honestly I think was just pretty neglected or something and turned him out the way he is. He's mostly bark and no bite and we'll miss El Maguey dinners with him every week. I sent Danielle an email and pic of Tara, haven't heard back from her yet, and I still need to send her the crazy banana card I got her. That's about it I think, guess I'm kinda rambling now. Off to surf around on the net!