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Hi, my name is Alexandra, I’m from Philippines. I know most people here are looking for babies but I know that some people here wanna adopt a teenager like me. I’m 17 and turning 18 this year. I’m looking for a family that will adopt me. I have a broken family and I live in my mother’s house currently. My mother left us for a guy when I was 4 and I lived my 14 years with my father. I was happy enough to be with him even without my mother by my side but I sometimes felt miserable because I envy other children, my classmates would bully me because no one would attend to a school meeting for me ( my dad’s at work) When I turned 14, that’s when my dad did something horrible to me so I ran away from home. My mom took me and told me that she’d let me live with her. My mom and I aren’t that close because she left me when I was just 4. Btw, she’s married with that guy that she left us for. I have two stepsisters and a stepbrother with her. I have to put up with my siblings sometimes, when we fight they would tell me to just leave their house because I’m not their father’s child. I just ignore it most of the time but inside, it hurts. My stepfather and I aren’t that close either, when I was a child, he used to despise me and would always shout at me saying I’m just like my father. When I turned 16, my mom told me that my real father isn’t the one who took care of me. He introduced someone and told me that that’s my real father. I couldn’t believe it at first, where was he all this time? The one that she introduced to me was kinda rich, he provided me everything that I need, paid my tuition, etc. He told me that he will make it up to me. The father that took care of me doesn’t know what is going on. He has no idea. My mom told me to just keep it a secret because things will get messy if I don’t keep it a secret. So when my father (the one he introduced to me) and I meet, we would always meet in secret or just inside his car. It hurts. Years have passed and I’m still in the same situation, I started to question myself. Is the one who he introduced to me really my father? I’m nothing like him, his face looks different than mine and what I see is that I look exactly like the father that took care of me. When I ask him (the one my mom introduced to me) if he’s really my father, he’d say yes and say that I just look like my father whom I grew up with because I was with him for 14 years. My friends told me that he wouldn’t spend for me if he’s not. I already asked my mom about this and she didn’t give me an answer. Right now, the one that my mom introduced to me, doesn’t contact me for two months now, before, he would give me my allowance every 2 weeks but now, we don’t really talk to each other anymore. I’m very sad. I don’t know if I’m depressed, I wanted to consult a psychiatrist but I don’t have money, every night I think of killing myself and I’m better off dead. I don’t know what will happen to my future. No one would support my studies. I don’t have someone to rely to. My mom doesn’t have a work and most of the time, she’s the one who ask me for money and just cares for my siblings. The dad that took care of me doesn’t have enough money to send mo to college and I don’t know if I can still continue studying now that I’m in Grade 12. I feel like I was born just to be a burden. My parents doesn’t really care for me.
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Hi, I have read your story & can say with great certainty that although your upbringing has been rocky & emotionally draining for you things will get better for you, nothing is impossible with great determination & Faith in God. We all have to let the past be the past & rise far above our problem...
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Also Alexandra so you know I am half Filipino . I learned the story of my life, the truths in bits and pieces about my parents in a span of 52 years before an Aunt told me ALL of the real truths. I was put into an orphanage here in America by my paternal Grandmother, my Fathers Mother who di...