To my children on this Mother's Day

You are grown now. I have lovingly saved every memory of your entrance into my life and heart. Whether the time comes when we can share the 'good times' as in the beginning of our meeting one another is still in God's hands. I have let go of the anger, the confusion, forgiven every offense done to me so that I might be free to love you. If you need me , I am here. If you do not, you are still okay with me. I staightened out my life but not without alot of time and help. My job as mother will never be over for me, no matter how old you get you will always be my little ones. My responsibilities to you are another matter. Who and what you become are determined by the choices you make , not the ones I made for you, before you had a 'vote'. Whether you can come to terms with who I am now to who I was then is up to you. I love you no matter what. I have space in my life for you if you are interested in spending time to get to know each other.' This spot reserved' just for you if you so desire, but my life was not defined by motherhood, so don't worry that I have no other interests. I have a very happy life, now, and I'm confident that the instability of the past is over. I'm just trying to say' Kids , I love ya, would love having you in my life, but you have lives of your own, so I'll be here, doing my thing but at least I'm in one place now for the last 10 years, that's a good thing !!!' This is my last post, to you personally. It's time for me to go on, without thinking that I failed you. I finally have peace, and can only hope you have some , too. Brenda