Could really use some words of wisdom out there

I have no words of wisdom for you. LIke you I am a Natal Mother that relinquished her child.The pain is incredible, I know , I've experienced it too. There will be days where you don't feel it, I promise you that. and eventually, you will see your child again. My daughter and I reunited after 38 years. Yeah, it was a long time, but that was part of the choices made by her and I. Some reunite when the child is 18, so you really have to hang in there for only seven more years. right? Quit beating yourself up, you did what you thought was right and most likely was. MOST adoptees are happy, loved and well cared for,although we as Natal Mothers worry about that forever.Now as to having more children? New things come up daily about fertility and how to have more babies. Don't give up. Even if you can't give birth to another, there are other methods available. And there is NOTHING wrong with Adoption of another child. We both know that the infant will not take the place of the baby you relinquished but that infant will be your heart, just like your first child. So many children all over the world that would give their baby bottles for parents, or even one parent.Talk to other women in here with fertility issues. By the way, some have relinquished , have fertility issues too. So you are not alone.You have a peer group here to sound off to, to tell your pain to and get some encouragement from.so, in a nutshell HANG IN THERE. Things are not hopeless. I feel your pain and share your grief.dmca

My heart goes out to you. I cannot even begin to imagine how you must feel. I wish I could find the right words to make you feel at peace or better. I saw first hand the courage and love it takes to place a child up for adoption. The birth mom of our son was our true angel she answered our long awaited prayers. Please try so hard not to blame yourself...you did what you thought was best for your angel at the time. Pray for strength and I hope God will bless you soon with an angel...the same way you have blessed a couple! You are in my prayers....:wings:

TO: Could Really Use Some Words of Wisdom Out ThereIt was 28 years ago when I lost my precious baby boy to a corrupt lawyer named David McConkie and others in conjuction with his employer Children's Aid Society of Utah. Most recently I've really started bitterly complaining and demanding information about my son who's now turned out to be my only child from my only pregnancy. This rogue lawyer (David McConkie) and social workers of CAS of Utah falsely accused me of killing a child they claimed me to have had prior to my son they took. MONEY is the actual reason David McConkie and the others wanted my white male infant which is to say it's because lawyers who transact adoptions get more money adopting out white male infants because these are the most expensive of all children who qualify to be adopted.Even though David McConkie and the others knew then and know now they lied by claiming me to be a child killer corrupt David McConkie insists he considers me a murderer. Wrongly accusing me is David McConkie's main way of covering up his own crimes and tortious offenses.By being an adoption predator David McConkie enabled himself to know all my vulnerable circumstances even though I was 24 years old--of not having my family support me as an out-of-wedlock pregnant young woman, not being college educated, un-employed, and all the rest that goes with being in such a potentially exploitable position--and certainly could have qualified for state aid to help me raise my child. But, again, David McConkie and the social workers at CAS of Utah didn't want to help ME raise my child. Instead as I've also said, above, David McConkie wanted money.Other racketeering lawyers like David McConkie operate in the field of adoption. They transact adoptions for huge sums of money--because they charge outrageous fees to everybody for every kind of service, supervise the legal procedure[s] involved in any given adoption because obviously they're the ones who have the specialized knowlege of knowing adoption law--and if other lawyers are sneaky and deceitful like David McConkie among these other lawyers who arrange adoptions for a living then they also collect money by the thousands per head (for each adoption). Now, you know this criminally mischiveous lawyer (David McConkie) never wanted me to speak out about him and his adoption racketeering and the predatory way he went about ripping my son away from me because, obviously, for me to speak out and tell my (and my son's) adoption experience means I'd expose him and the adoption fraudulence he executes against each un-wed mother he targets for the acquisition of her usually illegitimate-born baby.But the crooked lawyer (David McConkie) in my and my son's adoption matter went much farther than he ever should have because even after he had my son and was adopting him out David McConkie kept wrongly accusing me of child murder to the police and so used this false criminal accusation as a pretext of investigating me but actually has amounted to tracking me because of his wrongful taking of my child.Stalking me hence which is what I call David McConkie's harassing me, because neither David McConkie nor the police has/have any lawful authorization such as a court order to keep me under surveillance, is how David McConkie enabled himself to know I was preparing to leave the shelter and so try to manipulate me to remain homeless by staying in the shelter where I'd been lodging but then get angry when I refused to let him further exploit me and then so to avenge me and so steal a door key to my then-new apartment and consequently break into my apartment and vandalize my personal property. If he wouldn't have been shadowing me then David McConkie never would have known my circumstances to give himself another opportunity to further invade my privacy for no other reason than because he got angry and wanted to get revenge, not because this particular situation had anything to do with the matter involving my son and David McConkie knows this fully, which is what makes David McConkie's criminal conduct so egregious and necessary for me to seek justice in this whole matter. Even though this particular instance did not relate at all to my son, and his specific situation, David McConkie used my son and his supposed adoption matter as an excuse to again chase me around and try to force me to stop talking about him and his wrongful participation in the matter involving my son.See, all this wrong of David McConkie is because he concealed all the information in the first place. If my son's so-called adoption would not have been "closed" and this related information concealed which encouraged him to believe he could do anything and get away with it, even wrong, David McConkie would not have been so greatly able to commit his crimes of opporunity.This is what can happen when lawyers who transact them conceal "close" adoptions. It still remains exactly what the grounds of litigating against this lawyer who's a criminal, David McConkie and his law firm of Kirton & McConkie, will be because there are many. Kathy CaudleNatural Mother