Were any of you abused by your adoptive parents

It is amazing that people who have promised agencies, court, caseworkers and what not can so totally abuse the ones they have been entrusted to love and protect. I was adopted, abused and eventually left as soon as I could at age 17. I have had no face to face contact with amom in 20 years. Two years ago adad was dying and my abrother asked me to come. It was the first time I had seen him in that 20 years. He was barely hanging on and couldn't speak. I still had and have anger for all that I was put through. For my brother's sake I told him I forgave him and he died soon after. For the longest time I did not want to have children and then I discovered I was unable due to the abuse as a child. It seemed like just another cruel reminder. I didn't receive counseling - I probably should have. I had alot of really self destructive behaviours. Each day I work hard and outwardly I seem to have it all. Inside I just take it day by day and strive to be a better person, for myself and now children (through foster/adopt). I am a better parent than mine were but each day I strive to be better than I was the day before. I tell them that each one of us is a work in progress.