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I've had a headache now for 4 days. It's only getting worse and I can barely stand it. :( I have been trying to relax more and trying to deal with all the stuff I've been having to deal with but it's not helping.
My daughter has finally taken over responsiblity for my mom at night the past few days because I've been feeling so crappy. I'm so grateful for her help right now.
I've been having a lot of thoughts about my daughter lately and feeling very angry with her. I wish I didn't feel the anger I do but I know she's online because she plays online games and I have seen her in the rooms. She hasn't seen me because I am on invisible in the rooms but I know she's there. She has me as a "friend" on one of the online game places too.
I'll IM her and she won't respond on the messenger for days and when she does she says she hasn't been online for days. I know better and it makes me angry that she can't be honest with me. I don't expect her to chat with me when she doesn't feel like it but I hate being lied to about why she didn't respond to me at the time I was IM'ing when she has been online.
I guess I'm just tired of the lies and the excuses and the complete lack of respect for my feelings. I just wish she understood how I felt and would stop being this "child" she is.
She's an adult and yet she still has to lie about things as if she'd get into trouble for telling me the truth about her not wanting to talk at a particular time.
There are times when she will IM me and want to chat and chat for a LONG time even when I don't have the time (and I have been there to listen and let her talk when I haven't had the time or have been sick even)and expects me to be there when she wants me but doesn't give a crap if she's there when I need to talk. This is NOT and equal relationship and I just hate it!
Rylee
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