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I did stay away from the boards here for a little while...adoption.com for a couple of weeks was a trigger that sent me into a depression for a little bit each time I logged on. My DH noticed a change in me overall and was concerned enough to set up an appointment with us and the SW that did our homestudy and we all talked out what happened. Kinda like a mini therapy session and it's been a lot better since. I'm not completely over the whole ordeal but I'm handling it much better.
I've heard I can keep my milk in the deep freezer for a year. I'm sure that's a conservative estimate, but if I reach the 8 month mark and still don't have another match, I'm going to look into donating the milk so it doesn't go to waste. One of the hospitals in my city has a donor bank set up that I can give to.
My bio daughter is 3 and is very advanced in her level of comprehension and vocabulary. She understood that adoption meant that we were going to get a baby brother for her and that Baby Brother (as she called him) was in some one else's tummy (however she didn't quite get why his mother was giving him to us). We were very careful throughout the whole process in regards to her and I'm very glad for that now. We chose to adopt in a state that had no revocation period so that she would not bond with a baby then have him taken away if emom changed her mind. Although we told her she would be getting a baby brother and we showed her the ultra sound and she helped me organize his clothes that I had bought, we NEVER told her when he was coming. I wanted to so bad sometimes because I was excited about it and I knew she was excited, but we didn't feel she could handle the loss if emom changed her mind. Since emom changed her mind, we don't talk about adoption as much around her but any time she mentions Baby Brother we just say he'll be here sometime. It feels a little like we're not being completely truthful with her sometimes, but I couldn't imagine having to watch her go through that disappointment on top of what I've gone through myself. I don't know how we'll proceed the next time we get a match. It would be weird to not talk to her about it and just show up one day with a baby. On the other hand I don't want her to get too emotionally involved in something and have it fall through. We will most likely do what we did with this previous match and let her in on some of the adoption plan but not too much.