What's the next step??

After locating my b mom 12 months ago, I have done the following: -Mailed 2 generic letters from court intermediary

-Created a Facebook page "just for b mom" to view and see a glimpse inside my life.

-Sent 2 private messages to her from FB, always non abrasive, non demanding, very patient and understanding...about 6-8 weeks apart.

-since I received no reply at all,

I printed a copy of message, mailed it over night, signature required....she signed for it. :o

-Waited another month or so, still no response.:grr: -Dec. 3 I sent Facebook private message stating I was saddened and disappointed to have not heard from her. However, I would again be patient, give her more time, as it was not my intention to hurt her or be disruptive to her family.....if she was not ready or not able, to at least just reply with that.....I would wait. I was not looking for instant anything and would be open to as much or as little as she was able. However, if I had not received a response after the first of the year I would proceed trying to reach her via reaching out to others since I was not sure she had even read any of my messages.:fish: Well, still no response. Jan. 7th...I called, when she answered I said Carmen, this is Kay..."will you please talk to me?" Her response.."you talk, I'll listen". Basically, she reluctantly had a 15-20 minute conversation, gave me basic medical info., said very few members of family knew about my birth (I assume it's her mom, sister and possibly brother..all still living). I explained how truly grateful I was for the decision she made and how wonderful my parents have been. I have two wonderful children, a nice home, my own business, etc. I told her "I knew this had to be difficult for her, she said it had been but she could handle it." She would not tell me b father name or info. She said she did not want to know me or have a relationship with me. She wished me the best, but felt it would be better to just not have any other contact. The next day I noticed she had "blocked" the "just for her FB" page I had created just for her. I had even explained teh page had no friends, it was public, but a name no one but her would even know..it was just baby and growing up pics and hopefully a way for her to reach out to me later on. I am devastated. I've been a voyeur of her & her family on FB for a year. She has 4 sons, ages 35-44. I am 47. She is still married, very established, very close to her family, her kids are all successful, the youngest son is gay and lives in London with his "husband". They fly over and have multiple visits throughout the year...apparently his homosexuality has come out to the family and been accepted. I just don't understand. I don't need anything, I have a great life...I just have an empty feeling and I want to know.. I've been an only child, the possibility of knowing my brothers & family is a welcoming and fulfilling feeling to me. Just confused :fish: and not sure what to do now. Any thoughts or ideas would be greatly appreciated.