If you gave birth,.. why would you want no contact now?

Years ago, when I first found adoption.com, there were more birth mothers who posted on this site. Quite a few worried their children would feel they weren't good enough. They anguished over the women thy had become and what they went through. I placed my son in the early 70's when there was still a lot of shaming from society when you had an "illegitimate" child. Sometimes it depends on how much we internalized that sense of shame. I personally always wanted to be found but wasn't sure he would want me to find him. I hoped he would look for me. I finally found him right before he turned 33, through adoption.com. He had registered sometime before so I knew he was looking. His information was out of date, but I had a name and found him easily with it. Our reunion has been a good one, but even so it was quite a roller coaster, especially at first. I discovered emotions and thoughts I believed I had dealt with years before came crashing to the surface and I had to deal with them in a new way. Even in reunion, I mourn the time I did not have with him.As the others have said, there are any number of reasons. Each of us can only truly speak for ourselves and our own situation.Blessings, Kathy