Adoptees with Borderline Personality Disorder

I was given up at birth, lived in a foster home for 2 months, then adopted by the greatest parents on Earth. I am terrified of being alone and unsupported. To me being loved is being taken care of. If you won't take care of me then you don't actually love me. I will do anything and endure horrid mistreatment in order to be taken care of. I am 42 now. From puberty I have suffered prolonged periods of great depression and have attempted suicide once and planned it out to the point of spending time in mental health units in order to become stable enough to leave. It is my belief, (although un-diagnosed,) that I have Borderline Personality Disorder. Am I the only one? [url=http://www.borderlinepersonalitydisorder.com/]National Education Alliance for Borderline Personality Disorder[/url] I don't know how often I'll be checking back in on this site, so here is my email link. Feel free to communicate directly. thecrimsonrogue@hotmail.com