My adoption story

I cannot relate to your struggles, but I just wanted to say congrats on the birth of your baby boy as well as mending things with your husband. Keep up the writing to your son, and think about talking with a therapist or a good friend who knows your situation as much as possible. I can't blame you for feeling sad or feeling jealous of the adoptive mom. It's natural to feel that way. I would think it will get much easier in time. Best wishes!