Needing some thoughts...

pls share your thoughts and feelings with your Dr, he might be very well able to help you, at least a bit!! and also know, that having kids (bio or adopted) is not always a walk in the park!! when I had my first 2 bio kids, and they would run around, fighting, screaming, and never seemed to get along, I would think to myself, 'what have I done!!!!!!', I had dreams of having NO KIDS, and yes, at times I regretted having ANY kids.... this was 25 years ago, and I was a very young mom, but I remember the feelings/thoughts of 'will this ever end!!??!?'... and guess what.... it did. Now they are all grown, and I so miss them, sometimes :) seek all the help you can get, medical and whatever else is out there. Talk to your closest friends, maybe your mother. I hope things get better soon, and you can see that even though raising kids really IS the hardest job in the world, it also is a wonderful job. hugs!!!