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So this is my first post, but have been reading for quite a while now... We were matched with a sibling pair last year (foster care) and they moved in December. We finalized the adoption in June. I am having trouble dealing with the girl, age 8 but emotionally younger. I understand the history (multiple placements, attachment issues but not RAD, lots of abuse) and I thought I was well-prepared, but she is making me crazy. She is rude, defiant, disrespectful, instigates trouble with her brothers (one her bio, one ours by birth, both age 5) and I am struggling to find anything likeable about her. I have never felt love for her but I did feel mildy positive about her for a bit, but now I am wondering how I will make it through the weekend without losing it. I think the last straw was going to her school open house and hearing from her teacher how wonderful she is, "not a mean bone in her body". It kills me knowing that she can be so greart to strangers and so awful to our family. (I know how the attachment stuff works so it is not a surprise, just a big let-down.) Today I feel regret that I adopted her and I am starting down the barrell of a 3 day weekend. I am reading books, going to her attachment therapy and considering trying to get respite but could really use some support or suggestions from btdt parents here. Thanks!
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I cant say that I understand from the stand point of adopting but I do get EXACTLY what you are saying. We have a fd here that I struggle with every day. I am daily telling myself anything that I can think of that is a plus about her. She is RAD so I know how the attachment issue feels for you right now. There are days I want to scream or run down the road pulling my hair out. Just take it min by min and keep trying to think of the positives about her. Good luck with the wkend.
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MadeOfStars
I am struggling to find anything likeable about her. I have never felt love for her but I did feel mildy positive about her for a bit, but now I am wondering how I will make it through the weekend without losing it.
No advice, just offering support!! Have you made progress with the attachment therapy? If not -- it might be time to do some more looking for a better therapist (I know, I know what a pain that is!). And you probably know the rest: get breaks from her (school is starting soon!); find something that the two of you can do together that you both enjoy so you can have some positive interactions; make sure you're eating well/getting enough sleep/have someone outside of the family to support you. And give yourself time to grow to love her. It hasn't even been a year and these things take time. Hang in there!!!!
MadeOfStars
I am having trouble dealing with the girl, age 8 but emotionally younger. ...but now I am wondering how I will make it through the weekend without losing it. I
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I am not asking you to answer these questions aloud. But, do you prefer her brother to her? Did you adopt them primarily because you wanted him? Kids can and will pick up on subtle cues. (And, based on what you've said, you definitely love your bio son more. Again, she'll know that.)
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I wanted to chime in here.I struggled with my feelings for my daughter for the first few years. She was a bitter, angry, abusive stranger. However, as time went by, and I saw the effect of my parenting in her, it became easier to bond. Something that really helped me, was scheduling affection randomly. And Love/Logic. It gave me the idea that the consequence for behavior should be connected to restitution for the behavior. So anytime she was abusive (lets just be honest here) and make someones life harder to anyone, she had to make it up to them by doing something nice for the person and making their life easier. (chores, back rubs, foot rubs, brushing hair, doing nails) It made it easier for me to not despise her for her bad behavior when I knew I'd get something nice out of it.I also started to pick 1 or 2 behaviors at a time, and would let the rest slide with minor consequence. I'd focus on whatever behavior was the most disruptive. I also started rewarding myself for her bad behavior. Either way it became a win/win for me and a lose/lose for her. I also looked at her motivation and purpose behind the behavior and made sure she was unsuccessful. If her goal was to push me away and make me angry, I would make VERY certain I "interpruted" her choices to mean she was feeling sad/insecure/unloved and must need more mom time (time-ins) and extra hugs/kisses. Even if it wasn't what she needed, it helped her bond to me, and I enjoyed how much it annoyed her in the moment. Surprisingly she was never happier/more content than the days she was in a time in and doing extra chores. When I guessed what her goals in her behaviors were, I would make a scripted response so I didn't have to think of what to say in the heat of the moment. Usually it went some thing like this:"Oh man, your behavior is telling me that you feel unloved and insecure right now. I don't want you to feel that way. I love you and you belong in our family. So to help you feel more secure, we're going to spend a bunch of time together doing stuff all day/week etc..."I can see by your choices, that you need to spend more time with me""Your language tells me you don't appreciate me. I want to help you learn to appreciate me, so today/this week you get to do all the chores that I normally handle for the family!""I understand you haven't been in this family very long, and it feels really weird and awkward at times. I want you to know you can take your time getting used to the new direction your life is taking. I also know that if you start to like it here too much, it makes you feel guilty or disloyal to someone you love. But you need to understand that you can love different people different ways for different reasons.""It looks like you're making choices that used to help you before you became my daughter. You needed those skills and feelings and behaviors to stay safe and get your needs met. But now those behaviors are hurting you. Lets figure out a new way to get what you need, that doesn't involve hurting anyone."My daughter also hit puberty at age 8. It was a rough time for a few years. Find out what she doesn't know yet, but would enjoy learning, then teach her! You'll feel satisfaction everytime she does that skill, and she will too!
aspenhall- Thanks so much for your scripted responses! Having something I can say/repeat/chant like a mantra will help. I can already see that our parenting is helping (at least she has stopped the screaming fits that could last up to 90 minutes) and what helped then was making her do restitution (doing nice things for the family for however long she was screaming). I guess I get worn down and overwhelmed and forget sometimes. And sometimes it is hard to see progress, you know. I appreciate all the responses here. Thanks everyone!