Contact 7 Years Later

So 7 years have passed since my last post. Adopted at 8 months old I pretty much gave up on searching after 2008 until I found out that I could get a copy of my original birth certificate. Fast forward to Sept. 2012 when I discovered that fact (birth cert.) and a day later I had my Bmom's name, whereabouts and phone number. So what did I do? Call her. She was very agitated when she answered (because she saw an out-of-state number come up?) and so I told her who I was and how I found her. Her reaction? "Why after all these years and don't call me again." So a little over a year-and-a-half later, and after self-therapy, I write a letter to her to tell her about myself--pretty simple and non-threatening. This was two weeks before this past Easter. Saturday before Easter, and a day before my 50th birthday, I receive a letter from a friend of hers, who happens to be related by marriage, telling me about my Bmom. Apparently she showed him my letter and asked for his help for a response. Then on Easter Monday, I receive a letter from her, thanking me for my letter, and saying she was happy that she made the right decision but she needed TIME to think about things. So about two weeks later, I get a card in the mail from her saying her friend told her he thought it would be a good idea to meet and that she thought about making a trip up from where she lives (about 12 hours away) and asked me to please let her know what I thought. Earlier this week I responded that we could do that whenever she was ready and to take all the time she needed. That was this week. So the roller coaster ride has begun, and I find myself back at the only place where others know exactly how I feel.