REUNION

My name is Rosy, I come from Russia and i'm an adoptee i was 6 months when i was adopted with with my sister-twins, two months ago I found my mother, she is Uzbekistan, my father died and he was of Russian nationality.I found my family through an agency, my mother I found her through a social network, I posted an ad writing her name .... then his neighbor read my ad and said he knows my mother, so he called her ....She immediately wanted to talk to me and hear my voice, but I did not call because I had no money, then I gave the number to the agency because the agency sent her my photos and a letter I had written to her.After a few days she asked to a friend to add me on a Russian social network, because she does not have a computer in her home, so her friend wrote me that my mother wanted to talk to me via skype. he wrote for her: <<hi, im Sveta your mom....>>. At 8 calls via Skype I never responded, I only called once but the call lasted five seconds after that I knocked off the call.after I wrote via whatsapp this friend told her that i wanted to speak again with her , but I never responded ....her friend removed fromme the list of friends, my mother did not contact me anymore, I began to have obsessions, I think every single minute of her, I think of his voice when he said: << allo, allo, Galina! >> (Galina was my name). i think of what she feel to me, how she feels, she might have fears, I feel that she doesn't think of me anymore ....What fears do you have you mothers? do you have fears? how did you feel when your daughter has called you? last week her friend visited my profile on the social network ,i do not know if maybe it was my mother ask to see my profile ...i want to see her via Skype, but something stopped me .... Why do I have to contact her when she did not want to talk to me? when she don't contact me?Have you experienced the same emotions? are u afraid if your child does not contact you?do u worry as all mothers do?i'm obsessed with her, I always look at her picture, I wonder what she thinks of my behavior, i am stressed by it all, because I feel rejected ...reunion is not easy.... i want to talk with a birth mom..