I always Rejected ! Belong to nothing

that's very sad... I can relate to you since I was adopted myself (tho not legally)... but the feeling of not belonging is the same... when I reached 18 yrs old, I decided to live on my own and have my own family, and that's what gives me a sense of belonging. Maybe since you're 29, it's about time to start living on your own (that is if it's allowed there, I'm not sure). But I wish you'll find a way soon.