Sad and Confused

Hey, Emily you're normal. I've tried those things too. I know who my mom is and it still doesn't work. Me too and I'm not the only one. The human infant considers itself to be one with the mother until it is 18 months old. You lost not just a parent but literally part of yourself. Sadly, what people think they know about adoption adds layers of loss upon loss.Look there's a few thousand of us (adoptees only ) trying to heal ourselves on this other platform. Come join us. It's the best thing I ever did. You can just look around for a bit until you feel comfortable speaking but you'll notice quickly you are not alone. We've got everything represented open to closed, considering options, searching for families, happy ever afters, second rejections, and everything in between.