" One of the biggest and hardest decisions , I’ve ever had to make , was choosing the right family for my unborn child . Being a birth mother can be scary and feel so lonely . It’s confusing, physically painful, mentally and emotionally draining . Sometimes I felt my decision making was shaky , because I felt so broken . All I knew , is I didn’t want my son to have a hard life , because of my choices . He deserved the world and great parents , even if that meant , I couldn’t physically be apart of that world . Sadly , I was not prepared , in any way , to have a baby . I wanted him to have all of the opportunities in life , that I couldn’t give him . One day , I decided to look at parent profiles on adoption.com . I read a couple profiles each day , for about three weeks . I thought maybe I was being unrealistic, because I wasn’t finding a couple , that I felt , was our perfect match . I just wanted to find the perfect parents for him , that didn’t mean they had to be perfect , just the perfect fit for us . When I came across Julie and Dan’s profile , I could immediately feel the love they shared for each other . Their bios were beautiful and displayed nothing but warmth and love . My heart felt drawn to them right away . I looked through many lovely pictures , of theirselves and family , I could literally feel the unconditional love that surrounded them all . I was so excited to learn more about them . We sent emails , text messages and phone calls . The first time we all spoke on the phone , I felt so comfortable, like I knew them forever , I could just feel the kindness and concern from them both . They made me feel important , never pressured or rushed , they were beyond empathetic and understanding. After hanging up from our first phone conversation , I felt like I was on cloud nine , I know , so cliche , but no other words to explain the feeling . I was so excited for my unborn child , to have such awesome parents and the type of people I prayed for , to love him forever . I knew right away , they were meant to be his parents . When we finally met , my heart confirmed everything my mind thought . Nothing , but a warm loving feeling came from them both . The day of the birth , everything happened so fast , Julie and Dan got there as soon as they could . We didn’t make it to the due date , he came earlier . Baby had some small issues and was placed into the NICU , Julie and Dan never left his side . They truly loved him , before he was born , in those moments , I found peace . It was a bittersweet day , when it was the day to say goodbye and sign all the documents. I took an extra hour to myself with baby , I studied him so closely , memorized his precious face , kissed him a million times and cried a million tears to match . What made my heart stronger , was knowing , “who “, he would be calling “Mom” and “Dad” , FOREVER . Two wonderful human beings , that deserved more than anything to feel the love of being a parent . When I placed him in their arms , I had no worries , no doubts and no regrets . I still feel the same way and he’s going to be four years old soon . Julie and Dan have kept every promise made to me and my family . I have gotten so many wonderful pictures/videos and updates , which gives me a glimpse into their beautiful lives . I was so afraid at one point during my search , (before finding Julie and Dan ) that if the adoption parents decided , I’d be cut out of his life , not getting any updates and pictures at all . From day one , Julie and Dan have always reassured me , that they would always keep in contact , with updates and photos , which they sure have and I’ve been blessed to be apart of the journey . I was beyond blessed to find such amazing parents and wonderful people in general . My son lives a great life , full of love , fun , understanding , sports and so much more . Everything I wished for him . He’s an awesome little guy , that looks at his parents with so much love and content in his eyes . That’s enough to prove to me , that I made the best decision, when I chose them both to parent my unborn child . Baby has a wonderful father , that teaches him sports , compassion and all kinds of fun boy stuff , he has an amazing nurturing mother , that takes him to play dates , baby yoga , park dates , preschool at the age of 3 and so much more , there’s always something exciting going on for them all . Their son , is the center of their whole world . I hope another birth mother reaches out to them again , because once I found them , our journey became hopeful , instead of hopeless , full , instead of empty , loved , instead of heartache . They truly drowned out my pain , with their love for me and the baby . I am praying they get to experience this love again , with another special baby to add to their family . Their son will be an awesome big brother . He’s so caring at such a young age . He has a heart of gold , just like his parents , Julie and Dan . They truly answered my prayers and they are my true hero’s . Xoxo "