We are two weeks into January, and so far, I've managed to keep my resolution to stay off social media (Facebook and Instagram). Corey continues his morning meditations. We are eating more fish and fewer potato chips. I am full on smoothies about 3 or 4 times a week.
A few years ago, I decided that resolutions weren't meant for just the month of January. I am always evaluating and re-evaluating myself throughout the year. I get off track and things slip by, then something happens in life that reminds you to slow down, find time to take care of yourself, life is short.
One such reminder happened for me toward the end of last year. In September, my mom was diagnosed with a re-occurrence of colon cancer. This time, it was Stage IV, as it spread to her lung.
Now, my mom and I had been through all of this just three and a half years ago when she was initially diagnosed with cancer. It was very sudden and very scary.
This time around, it seems we were a little more prepared for it. My mom, a widow of 8 years this February, had been getting regular scans and tests, then something showed up in one of her lungs. She went into surgery not knowing for sure what it was. They removed it and biopsied it, and it was in fact colon cancer, not lung cancer.
So we prepared for the worst. My mom was thinking she was going to have to go through chemotherapy again, which knocked her down the last time. She pulled through somehow, living on her own. She was just getting back on her feet again, and now this setback. It seemed like a cruel, endless cycle.
This January, we had a little light shine through the dark clouds. Mom's doctor said that she doesn't need to go through chemo! Since the surgeon removed the tumor from her lung, and the most recent scans show no evidence of cancer, we could just monitor things with new scans every three months. Plus, there was some new bio-testing that could be tailored to my mom's blood work on a molecular level that could detect cancer growing in her body up to 2 years earlier than traditional scans, and my mom was to be the doc's first patient with this trial!
It felt weird to say that she wasn't going to treat her Stage IV cancer, but the doctor said she is really thinking about doing the least amount of harm possible. So, my mom is making plans to travel again. This summer, she wants to visit Scotland with a local travel group.
She may have to takes things 3 months at a time, health wise, but she's not going to allow a cancer scare to stop her from living her life.
We take the good with the bad. We roll with the punches. We find our inner peace in a world filled with turmoil. We allow things to flow through us, sometimes like being a sieve under a waterfall.