Finalized on Monkey

Hi- I've been gone since the changeover, but for those who followed my little story, our big chapter has come to a close - we finalized with my little Monkey last week. It was a rough day with his really stubborn response to our photographer in the morning, then a super long wait in court. He is a little more settled, especially with DH, but also having really strong terrors and nightmares, and wetting. No poop, though. --silver linings-- Oddly, he was the one of my three that has the best sense of what adoption means in the moment, so I thought it would mean there was a more genuine joy, but I think what it yielded is actually a kid who understands and feels some of the grief and confusion that comes with that finality. Probably better in the long run, but not as much fun in the moment as a somewhat oblivious kid who gets that they're the star of the day. (That was my other two.) All of it doubly complicated by appropriate birth family dropping out of touch and borderline birth family pushing boundaries for us. This is never an easy road. We just keep loving him through it all. I simply can't imagine my life without my little monster. We're so glad it's forever.