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Not sure if I am going to get the answers or help I need, as that is what I need in this troubling times for me.
I was adopted at a young age before I hit my double digits, I have no idea who
My biological parents are anyway moved from a third world country to a westernised country, my parents were white as a doctor’s coat, anyway. I had my father mother and two sisters, I quickly adapted to the new way of life and people we become normal white family, except I was the non white kid, we had nice house and parents were earning enough to buy as the nice things and put us through pricey private schools and holidays here there, life was normal as I thought, all families have their issues and stuff and we get over because we are family.
Anyway I had a normal life friends girls Xbox you know as most Boys do , then comes the internet, now it’s normal to stumble upon the internet and watch porn and what not, after couple of years up growing up and maturing and puberty etc life seems normal but not exactly i can pin point where it all went wrong,
Watching porn for years not an addiction at that point but I stumbled upon “mother son” incest videos and something just ignited in me and all of sudden that’s all I am interested, this has been going on for years and by then I am what early 20s I thought I just had a thing for old women and it’s a phase, I had serious girlfriend for a number amount of years and it was great sex was a normal white girl who was perfect for me.
Anyway fast forward few years later I’m in my early 20s single and still seeing girls my age and sex was great and but my interest in mother son porn increased sometimes I don’t mind brother sister porn even, but mother son was most outrages heart pumping category for me, it got worse over the years to the point I started picturing my own mother my adoptive (non biological) in way I can’t type on this, Anyway it got worse and worse so I moved and thought things would get better but still no resolution, my mother son porn addicting has increased to 4-5 times a day, my mothers has no idea to this day, I don’t think seeing a therapist will do anything. I have read some where just confronting your fears and feelings usually solves this dilemma, but this case is not your average case. Please help?
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