iso bmom

i already have aposting under Texas, but thought i would place a posting here also. I was born in july 1964, in fort worth, and adopted thru gladney. sometimes i wonder what in my life is real and what is not, I can remember things that my adoptive mom has told me that my non id papers said, and over the years her story has changed, so now i have no idea what to expect when i actually get the info for myself from gladney, i just wish that they didn't charge you for it, not everyone has access to the money it more or less takes to do all the searching. i have started and stop the search who knows how many times over the past 14 years. there are so many what if's that run through my mind that some times i think that it is going to drive me crazy, i do know that i would like to meet my bmom and get to know her, but most of all i would like to know who i am and where i came from.