Adoption help support

Hi everyone! My husband & I have been married almost nine years (this nov. ) and five year we struggled with infertility treatments. We weren't able to try many, I was on oral meds for 4 mos. and took 1 mo. off before find I can ovulate. , unfortunately we were only able to try the new treatment with egg donor and were forced to stop due to my husbands employer switching insurance carriers. The new carrier does not have a infertility treatment benefit and we tried to get them to make an exception in our case since I was already having tretments, but they wouldn't do it. I have PCOS and there is a chance to conceive BUT I have been trying for six years now, it's hard to think positive. I will be turning 39 in sept. so I'm running out of time and don't want to miss out on being a mom. We are now looking into adoption and are having a hard time finding the right fit with an agency. We would love to adopt a healthy newborn but are open to under four years and any race. It is very discouraging to find that not many infants are available and that there are such long waits at some agencies just to do the home study. We are attending our 3rd orientation meeting tomorrow. I had a very hard day today and felt like I'll never be a mom, this is something most women have dreamt about since they were little. I'm feeling the need to join a support group and also hoped to find extra support here. We shared our infertility treatment struggles with family & friends and didn't get much support, we want to be more careful this time around but it's been hard for me not having anyone to turn to. It's sad when you can't count on the people you trust & love. Only very few know of our hopes to adopt and I'm already running into support problems - UGH! I'm open for all suggestions on any topic involved with adoption and welcome any support you can give. Thanks for listening! Take care,