faith helps?

I consider my self a Christian, but unlike the other poster I am not a believer in pre-destination. I believe that human beings have the gift of free will. That because of this people sometimes create less than desirable situations, or even wreak havoc. As a birthmother I do not believe that God willed for me to get pregnant with a child that i was not in a position to raise so that my son's adoptive parents could have a child. What kind of God does that? What kind of God orchastrates infertility so that people turn to adoption? What kind of God destines a child to be born to a family that cannot care for him? Not my kind of God. I chose to make love to my son's birthfather, I chose to place him for adoption. It was my actions. I do not see God as micromanaging our lives. I believe that God gives us strength in prayer and guidence in His words. I believe that prayer is about listening to God within us and following what we hear. I believe, when we are not listening, the trouble often begins. Healing often means forgiving ourselves first. It means loving ourselves as God loves us.

For me, faith did help. I am a Christian and I was asking God for a signs to help me know that I was doing the right thing. In the past, I thought that every little thing was a sign. I think that I was trying to find signs and not let the signs come to me. As I was pregnant this past year, I had recieved a number of signs in confirming my decision. I gave birth to a baby boy on Feb 5 and during my hospital stay I even received signs. I know that I did the right thing. I hope that others will continue to keep their options open.

I know that my beliefs led me to make the decision I made, which was placing my child for adoption and not having an abortion. I agree that God didn't plan for me to get pregnant, but that all things work together for good for those who love the Lord. My daughter's parents love the Lord and he rewarded them with the child they had been praying for. I love the Lord even thought I had slipped away and stayed slipped away for a long time. What I had learned growing up served me well as I knew to look for a family that would raise my daughter to love the Lord. Today, sometimes the only strength I can find is in the Lord. Sometimes when it feels like the rest of the world is against me, I know Jesus is for me. If you are interested in a wonderful support group of birthmom's, PM me and I will tell you about it. It isn't Christ based, but it a wonderful group of women who love each other and know what each other feels.