Hi mom, today is my birthday and I just wish I could hug you

Hello mom, Today I turn 36 (although I keep telling everyone I am only 25 ) and I wish I could give you a hug for every year full of happiness that has been my life. Although I love you and miss you dearly, I have to admit I have had a most beautiful life. I have loved and been loved in return. I wish you could meet everyone you gave me as a gift the day you relinquished me so that you may be in peace knowing you made the right choice. I don't know if you are looking for me or even interested in finding me but don't ever doubt how much I love you. There are so many stories I wish I could share with you and so much I want to know about you. I want to make you part of my life and thank you for the gift of life. I don't know how many more birthdays will pass before we find eachother but just remember that I love you.