What would you do if you were us?

Hi, I know some of you have followed our journey in our quest to adopt a domestic newborn. We are about to cross our two year mark and are thinking of other possibilities. We have been working with an awesome independent attorney this whole time, while our failed placements were not his fault yet we are still empty handed. Our last failed placement was at the beginning of October and we have not even spoken to another pbmom since then or gotten close. We are of course, always runner ups. I know we have been put to the top of the list for any pbmom's along with another family in our situation. **Also I should mention that my contract with him expired way back before our placement failed but our attorney felt so bad that advised us that we do not need to worry about paying another installment for him to keep looking and put our profile out there. To be honest, I believe he is really working hard to find the right one for us. This is my issue, my DH and I have just been sealed in June (DH was baptised last May, Yah) and now we are ready/able to apply with LDS Family Services. Should we even think of doing this? Should we advise our attorney of our change and cut him off? Or, should we just apply with LDS and get on the books and not let the attorney know? I know that sounds awful but I don't want him to continue or feel like a failure if we walk out on him. Does that makes sense? Upon all of this, I am supposed to have surgery (Laproscopy) to determine why I can't get pg and fix something if it needs fixing. And, just maybe I would get pg.... If that was the case, we would still want to adopt or keep everything out there and let HF do his magic. Just not sure what to do? Any thoughts. Has anyone been here before? Kristy