If you're out there... RESPOND! please?

December 13, 2005

I don't know exactly where to begin? I posted a thread not too long ago, about "What do you think... am I outta place here?"

There was a couple of nice people who responded and advised me that I a may not be posting in the right place, or that sometimes a post may be inactive after having been up for a while, and have recieved only a couple of responses. Well, I'm sorry, the post I was looking for some people to respond to is on the MAIN page, once you've clicked on "stories" (next to forums (700+) and chat, and all) I've talked this over with my husband a couple of times, and read some of the posts to him, before I've submitted it, and told him that I wrote in my posts a couple of times that I hope I am not coming off as self centered, that it's just that WHERE IS EVERYBODY? He told me that even though I may not mean to, sometimes when saying that, people will automatically percieve that of me, just because I mentioned that.

Here's the thing, I REALLY DON'T WANT TO COME OFF THAT WAY. :( Really. It's just that I have been psoting where I can, and nothing really. I asked someone a question one time who was online, and got no response back yet. If you want to know where I'm getting at, read my article please, Touched By An Angel or What Do You Think.. Am I Outta Place Here? and you'll know what I mean. I'm just looking for more than like 1 response to someone who's kinda like me, an aunty, a family friend, SOMEONE who can share a story with me and say, "Well see, this was my situation, I can relate to you somewhat becausee..." but nothing. I know you're out there somewhere. I've read a couple of stories with grandparents, and "well my aunty" Please, TALK to me.

Don't mean to come off harsh here, I KNOW the world does not revolve around me. But, I did look into this site to get a little feedback and talk to you as well, but I feel I'm not getting very far. I'm sorry I am not a b-mom or a-parent, and from reading the forums here, I know I would not have wanted to walk in many of your shoes, I know that there are alot of you hurting out there, and my prayers to you. :( But, all I am looking for is someone to talk to, and kind of connect with here. Also, I'm sure there may be some tid bits of advice or encouragement I can maybe offer you? from having experienced this with my two sisters, going through the process (as to knowing all the requriements on both ends, meeting the parents, closed adoption, things allowed not allowed, my sister's hurt, my hurt, having raised my niece for a while, forming the mother daughter bond with her that my sister never really got to develop with her, because of something else I can't go into, etc.) But, how will you know if you don't read?

I AM SORRY FOR VENTING---JUST FRUSTRATED.

I MAY SAY GOODBYE FROM HERE ON OUT. :(