Does she wonder about me?

Tonight is the first night of Hanukkah. My DD was placed with a Jewish family and was raised Jewish. I'm not Jewish, so I wonder... Would Hanukkah be celebrated with family and friends like Christmas? Would she wonder about me during this time? On Christmas Day does she wonder what it would be like? (Her parents know I am not Jewish) The closer it gets to Christmas I have to really try hard to stay busy. Once I slow down and start thinking about another Christmas without DD I start crying. I know this will pass when the holidays are over, but right now, this time of year, I'm just sad. This Christmas Eve a stocking will be hanging for her, just like the years before. While my family is at my house on Christmas Eve night I will be quietly wishing she were with me, joining in on the laughter and joy. On Christmas morning when her little sister is up and checking out everything Santa left for her, I will be quietly wishing she was there with us, checking out what Santa brought for her too. I will be quietly wishing her and her family lots of love and happiness, like I do every year. Until then I try my best to stay busy and try my hardest to remain patient while we celebrate a holiday with loved ones, minus one very special person. I hope she knows she is with me in my heart. Merry Christmas and Happy Hanukkah DD!