Were any of you abused by your adoptive parents

I also was abused by my adoptive parents. Laws were different in the ‘70s. I was “put up” for adoption at 2yrs due to birth moms living conditions (with a 1yr old sis). Apparently SS tried to get us adopted together for 2 years. I was adopted at 4yrs old for farm labor. Baling hay at 5 with an adoptive brother a year older than me. Treated us like slaves including an occasional bull whipping (real bull whip)Age 11 school inquiry into marks on my body led to me being taken away and up for adoption again. Never happened. At 16 I’d been to more schools than my age. Foster homes and eventually group homes.Despite all this bullshit I went through I graduated HS and college with a degree. I am unable to live in the same location for more than a year at a time, think of suicide daily (multiple previous attempts). Holidays are the most depressing times when you have absolutely no one to trust or love. During college breaks I’d either go camping or sneak into my dorm room. I have a “plan”...