Sometimes it is best not to look...

I have met my birthmother, my biological sister, and have spoken on the phone with my biological half-sister and brother by phone. I had a warning in the back of my head that I might not wish to meet them after the initial phone conversations, but I decided to do so afterall. I am really glad that I have met my sister. She is a really neat person and very nice. However, on the first meeting my mother was very distant. My half-sister has been just awful. She actually started screaming at me at the meeting because "she was called from work" (a job she quit two weeks later). I tried once again to meet her at the request of my biological mother and she made demands on me that I could not meet (I could not stay in town another day after trying twice during that visit to meet her). She was again self centered and downright nasty. Now, the biological mother has (as a result) asked me to delete her phone number and not to ever contact her again. My biological Father is deceased. My brother grew up with him. My brother and I had nice conversations after a rocky start via telephone. However, he asked me to loan him money when I could ill afford to. I did so for multiple reasons and he wound up never paying me back. Since he received the money, he has avoided my phone calls and emails. I am glad that I met my sister but the rest of them I can't figure out. They have asked me to bend and bend and I have despite how difficult the meetings have been for me. I can't bend anymore and I am not sure that I quite wish to again. By the way, they insist on calling me by the name that she wanted to call me, which is not the name I have had for over 40 years. That makes me exceptionally uncomfortable. I will not respond to that name. I was also referred to as my mother's "dirty laundry." Be prepared for strange circumstances when you meet. I found out that I was born a year after my parents divorced!