looking for Birth MOM-Son dob 10/30/61

Hello I am new one here........I have spent many hours n the web searching for any of my birth family...I am not even looking to meet ...I just want to know...and as I seek and search I get caught up with reading about everyones story on here...and at points it bring me to tears...some of happiness some of sadness.......I know I am considered lucky as my Non ID contained letters my Birth Mom wrote to the Foundling Hospital asking them not to force her to give me up...when you read below you will understand....but my heart goes out to everyone on here and everyone looking...just seems unfair that in this day and age we aren't allowed to know who we really are and what people make up our beginnings...sorry to vent...........much luck to all God Bless Our birth Moms...they are specail People for giving us LIFE!! Birth Name Joseph Nickolas Martin DOB October 30,1961 BM signed me over : March 1. 1962 Foundling Hospital NYC _ANYTHING YOU KNOW ABOUT THE SPECIFIC ADOPTION _____________________________________________________________________________________ have some letters my birth mother wrote and unfortunately a lot is badly copied and black...of course all the names are white out...in the letters she seems to be writing to a Mrs. Armstrong...she also mentions a Mrs. Dawson who keeps calling her to sign the adoption papers. My Birth mom asked her not to rush her. That she loves ( ) very much. She says again not to rush her into this and that even her own mom told her it was her decision to make. That she is confused and mixed up.She says she has to see ( ) so much and could she please arrange it. She asks for a picture of me before she signs the papers. Talks about how much she loves me. How she has lost everything. But knows its best for her to give me up. ...I also have my medical records when I was in the foundling. I called the foundling chapel and tried to see if I could get info on my baptism since I knew the date...but they wouldn't release any info to me. Was hoping maybe get a name. I often wonder why a woman who didn't seem to want to give me up never came looking for me...I never asked my adopted Mom any questions out of fear of hurting her. My dad (ad) died when I was seven and she raised me by herself.,,, in a letter that I can read it seems as if my Birth mom was very religious as...she prayed to god to take her and not her mother....that she and her mother prayed and cried everyday for the baby inside of her....she mentions that her mom died on a Monday at 12:38 PM....which was the same day and time her baby was born...and that it was a sign from god. That her mother must be in heaven...that now she must take care of her father. NON ID INFO: ______________________________________________________________________________________ "Your birth parents dated for four years. Your birth mother assumed they would marry if she got pregnant. Your birth father felt he was financially responsible to his family- his father was ill and he was saving to put his sister through college. He suggested adoption and marrying at a later date. Your mother broke off the relationship. Your birth mother was referred for prenatal care by a nearby county and they offered to pay her care. Her family doctor wanted her to stop working because she had to lift heavy objects. He due date was November 20.1961. She entered out maternity shelter on September 12, 1961. She adjusted well given this was her first separation from home. Unfortunately, in October both her parents were laid off and her mother had two cataract operations. Your birth mother came somewhat depressed and was in panic. She was hospitalized twice for false labor. She was evaluated and given sedatives. After a visit from her mother and sister, she seemed to calm down. She was confined in the hospital on October 29 th and you were born on October 30, 1961. You remained in the hospital until you were six pounds. You came to the Foundling on November 20th and you were baptized here on that day. Your birth mother felt that after her mother died, unexpectedly, from cancer, that she would be unable to surrender you. Eventually she realized she was not in the position to raise you. Your paternal grandmother wanted to keep you, but your birth mother felt this was not in your best interest. Your birth mother surrendered you for legal adoption on March 1, 1962. You went into a foster study home on November 20th. You were hospitalized for a hernia operation from January 8th until January 13th when you returned to your foster home. Your birth father was twenty three years old and Italian American. He had two years of high school and worked in fencing. He had a heart murmur. He was five feet eleven inches tall and had average build with blonde hair and brown eyes. He had an olive complexion. Your birth mother was born in the Northeast in 1941. She quit high school two months short of graduation in order to help support her family. She worked in sales and as a secretary. She was five feet seven inches and one hundred and eight pounds. She had brown hair with red tints, blue eyes, and a fair complexion. She was described as soft, gentle and close to her mother. Your birth mother left the hospital on November 4th. She returned to transport you to the foundling. After her mother died, she assumed a lot of responsibility for her family. Your birth father offered to marry her but she refused. An appointment was made for her to visit you. Your mother's family had financial problems. Her older siblings were aware of you but not her younger ones. Her father was sixty and worked in construction. He sprained his back in a serious accident and was only able to work occasionally. Her mother was fifty seven and from Canada. The records indicates she was french-Canadian. She had a seventh grade education. She fell and had a back injury. She had exploratory surgery shortly before she died from cancer on December 4th. Your mother had a thirty-seven year old brother who lived in the south with his wife and two children. He was in good health and a high school graduate. He worked as a truck driver. She had a thirty five year old brother who lived in the Northeast with his wife and three children. He did construction work and had a heart condition. She had a thirty two year old sister who had a husband and three children and lived in the northeast. She was a high school graduate. She had another brother who was thirty and single. He lived at home. He had one year of high school and worked in construction. Your birth mother had a sixteen year old sister who was in school and in good health. Her brother was fourteen and had polio when he was seven. He was retarded in speech and delivered newspapers. After his mother died he began to act out." _______________________________________________________________________________________Thank you to all who read........... Paul Burrachio:thanks: Looking for my Beginning Family