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Well, it's that time of the year again. Tomorrow is "the birthday," mine and D's. I am exhausted, down and teary. I thought at first it was the bishop's convocation which is supposed be energizing (I normally come home tired!), then I realized it's Oct.4 tomorrow. Reunion hasn't helped... in fact, I think the depression is worse now than it was before I foind D. I'm not sure if I'm just "venting" or if I'm asking the question how many of you relate?
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(((( Kathy ))))
Thinking of you a lot today. And you know, it's like I said to you and I truly believe this....... For you, a woman who shares a birthday with her adopted child, the pain must be double what it is for the rest of us. Not because we love our children any less but because your birthday is defined by loss.
:-(
I'm so sorry my friend. In a perfect world no one would know the pain of adoption from any side.
Wishing you peace today.
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Also thinking of you kathy :flowergift:
I know that Cupcake's birthday being on/around Thanksgiving always throws a wrench in things because I can't grieve - I'm supposed to be celebrating! I can't hide away from family because Thanksgiving is about being WITH family.....
And I've only had to deal with ONE birthday so far! (Although obviously number 2 is just around the corner...)
Take care of yourself and come back here when you need us. We're here for you.
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You know what Kathy,
I've found MY birthday much harder to deal with since reunion. NO idea why!
Of course, you would make it more difficult to pin down problems by sharing that date with your son.
*sigh*
I think filling prescriptions counts as something for yourself if there's something really good in there! ;-)
Btw, I handled this year by making the day more about my other kids. Weird maybe, but I think taking the focus OFF of me, helped.