He said "I think of you often" -Our 1st email

He said "I think of you often. I think mostly about how I would be if you decided to keep me....how I would think, how I would feel...of course I'd still be the same handsome guy"!!! I read these words at 5am this morning. (there is a 9 1/2hour time difference) It was our 1st contact in over 18 years. We spoke in 1990, I had searched for him and contacted him directly, not through his adoptive parents, he was 21. We exchanged pictures, spoke twice on the phone and then my letters were returned by the post office. He said in his email "I didn't persue a relationship with you at that time was that i felt the way you contacted me, circumnavigating my parents, would have been betraying my parents in some small way". I started looking for him again about six weeks ago, when I saw that he registered here in 2005. I called the # in his profile after not getting a response from an email I sent. I spoke to an exgirlfriend, that registered him w/out his knowledge and asked her to please give him my number. Still no call, I wasn't sure if she gave him the message or maybe he didn't want any contact. Last week, I located his adoptive father and sent him a letter. Yesterday I received a letter from his father w/ my adopted son's email address and phone numbers and kind words. I decided email was the best way, it was light and brief. I still didn't know how he felt. I got up in the middle of the night and checked my email, not really expecting anything. I am so very blessed, TODAY IS A GREAT DAY! As happy as I am with hopes of a relationship with him, my heart aches for all who are searching. You are in my prayers daily. Thank you for your support.:dance: L.