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I'm at a bit of a loss here - but not in a way that is hurting or damaging me. Hence why I just joined this forum, because I have been asked to submit an opinion on a future course of action, and while I have what I believe might be my final recommendation - I'm still going back and forth in my head on what I think the right thing to do is. And because this relates to my adult sibling - someone with whom I have a serious bond, for my entire life (I'm mid thirties) - I definitely want to push for what is ultimately best for them.
(just to note - I am keeping genders, ages, and any details that could give it away completely out of my story - so forgive the blank holes. My sibling does not know - and as close as we are, I don't think they have a clue - and until such time as the parties in question decide what to do - I would rather eat steak knives than be responsible for letting this out until it's right, or even at all. Only in the extremely unlikely event that they have concerns they haven't relayed to me, and more unlikely event that they would find their way here)
As I said - I am in my mid-thirties. My entire life - my view was that I grew up in a family with two children, that I was the youngest, and that I had an older sibling. We've always been close - as close as siblings could be - our entire lives.
There was a story on how our parents met - and frankly, as we got older, we came to understand the story as a marriage born somewhat of necessity (i.e. our mother was pregnant with my sibling before they were married) - but as family stories go, it was pretty tame, and we've even joked about it. My parents are still married, and happy.
So - we never had even the slightest moment where the story didn't seem right - or that there would be any reason to question anything.
That being said - my sibling and I look nothing alike - but they do have enough features similarity for it to be explained as reflecting a different side of the family gene pool. I even have made jokes on it in the past - noting our lack of physical similarity and even making jokes that my sibling was the proverbial "milkman's baby"
Not too long ago - my father visited for a period of time. We're pretty close as well (this is a tight-knit family - even though we all drive each other nuts occasionally) Without drawing this out - in our naturally in-depth conversations - my father revealed to me the last family secret: my sibling is not my father's child, and that he had in fact adopted them. And that the sibling I had, without even a moment of question, always thought of as my full-biological sibling is, in fact, my half-sibling.
The struggle with this is NOT with me - my sibling is my blood, and there is no change in how I feel about that. The struggle is: I have been asked, frankly, for my opinion on disclosing this to my sibling.
I've eliminated the "accidental disclosure" risk here, for a couple of reasons. For one - any paperwork that still exists unseen does not disclose the difference in paternity - as the father in question was gone months before the birth (though my father knew him - but does not have any idea where he might be, if he is still alive, etc). My sibling is my mothers child - so there is that. Furthermore - I was made aware that my fathers siblings were aware at the time, and accepted the course of concealing the fact. My grandparents, for example, took this secret to their grave - and never treated my sibling as anything other than their first prized grandchild their entire lives (I know this, because I was always kind of jealous). So the odds of one family member saying anything have, in my opinion, completely diminished over time to the point of nil.
So if the decision is made to protect that secret - it could be done. I know I myself am perfectly willing to keep it until I go to my own grave. My thoughts are - my sibling is a few years older than I am, at a point in life where you have largely fully established who you are, where you came from, etc. And in ALL respects but one - genetics - this is absolutely true. I believe in distinguishing truth vs facts - the idea that family truth is what we make it to be, and generally, we do that for the best. So I believe my sibling has a life of truths that are no less valid than mine.
But my flip side is this - and something I still can't answer: for those of you who discovered late in life that you were, in fact, adopted - retrospectively, after finding out, and getting through the turmoil that I would imagine this generated - are you glad you knew? Do you feel, after everything was settled, that you were given a better understanding - and the possibility that you have familial connections that have enriched you? In short - when I say I am not in favor of ever telling my sibling, because I don't want to confuse truth with simple facts - am I being selfish, protective of my sibling - or would I be encouraging the denial of opportunity?
If anyone wants to comment - thoughts are appreciated.
In all the time I have been on this forum there was only one late discovery that wished she had never found out - all the others were horrified more because their entire life was a lie and everyone else knew...in other words it was wrong to lie and is still wrong to lie.
Now to get to the reality...suppose I had never been told I was adopted...and I gave my doctors my complete family history (which I could have because dad was a doctor and we learned the importance of knowing)...how that misinformation I gave the doctor could have impacted my care (even though my care was impacted because of being adopted (closed) they at least looked for reasons they wouldn't have looked for if they already knew my history). What if he gets sick and they don't look past your mother and fathers family health history because the doctors don't know? What if an early onset condition runs on his fathers side and he isn't screened early for it? Can you live with that?
He should have been told young and no one is doing him any favors by keeping this secret.
Regards,
Dickons
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I only found out 6 months ago and, although, there was speculation from my inlaws and friends that there was something "fishy" going on due to the fact that I didn't have a birth certificate to get my marriage license and the variety of identification to just get my state ID (I didn't drive until this year and I am 39).
After spending a bit of money periodically just to try to find my birth certificate under the name I was raised with and getting the "document pending" letter each time, I finally pushed. When my mom finally told me, I wasn't mad or shocked, but more of a moment of "Finally".
When my mom brought me my real birth certificate and told me how I came to be their daughter, she told my sisters that I finally knew, they were the ones to tell her, "Finally" and that they were more mad at her for not telling me sooner.
I look enough like my adad's sister and her family that while growing up, I did not dwell in the fact that I didn't look like my family even though I had thoughts that I was adopted.
I wish you the best while making this decision and please know that this adoptee is glad that I know and knowing my story and the fact that I was given a better life with the decision of my "unofficial adoption" and wanted by my afamily.