Anyone else been rejected by their adoptive family?

I was lied to and did not find out the truth until I was almost 28. My adoptive mother was angry at me for wanting to know the truth about being adopted and is not okay with having a daughter that was adopted; she wants me to pretend I wasnt. My story is long and complicated so I wonҒt get into it. Funny thing is I mourned never having a real mother before I knew I was adopted and so when she cut ties with me it wasnt a major loss, in some ways more of a relief to not have to keep up such a superficial and destructive relationship with a woman that even though she adopted me at birth I never felt bonded with me. I try not to have these days often, but today I am having a pity party, mourning that I never had that loving caring nurturing mother that I am super jealous of those I know that do have. It is so hard not to think something is wrong with me, like why am I not lovable by my own mother? I have virtually no family. I pay a counselor to listen to me once a week; if I had a mother I donҒt think Id need to. I look at my own children, granted I am a womb/birth bonder, but I would like to believe if they were adopted I would still feel blessed and love them the same because they are my own children. I canҒt imagine anything they could do that would make me not want to be their mom anymore. I know this is about my (a)mother, she has cut her mother and sister out of her life for over a decade before; so Im not the only one she has cut out of her life before. I was just curious if anyone else has been cut out of their adoptive families livesҒ? I am grateful for who I am which is in part due to my life experiences, but sometimes I cant help but wonder how my life could have been different if someone with a heart for adoption had adopted me instead.