A small ray of happines

I have had a lot to be grateful for these last few days. I had a wonderful conversation with both the adoptive mom and dad. We talked about a lot of things but a large part of it was she told me she loved me too. That she is so grateful for little man but she is also grateful that I am their birth mom. That had I changed my mind she wouldn't have held it against me. That while our contact agreement may say one thing, now they actually just like seeing me and that even if it wasn't there they would still want to see me. The adoptive dad also told me how many of the PAP's had an attitude of how do we get the pesky birth mother away from our baby! It was the reason they didn't want to be around other PAP's. I realize now just how lucky I am. I was awoken at 9am Saturday to my computer buzzing at me. It was the three of them calling to video chat. Out first one wasn't supposed to be for another two months. Seeing my little man laugh made my heart melt. It made me feel so grateful that they don't want to just get rid of me to live their lives with their son. I mentioned that I was going to be in town for xmas to visit family in the area. They also said to let them know because they would love to see me. I hope things can always be this good, and I am so grateful that they really meant their promise to be open.