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I am frustrated, I am 50 years old and feel like I have been trying to please my parents and my family (sibs) for 50 years. I am not like them at all. I am creative, love animals...etc. My adoptive family are all anal professionals, planners to a fault and very judgemental...How do I break this cycle it is interfereing with my adulthood. MKR
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Hi Michelle, Welcome... I doubt I have any advice to offer that will solve the problem. How far away do you live from them and how often do you see them? Have they ever tried to understand the differences and have you tried to talk to them about it? Sometimes just not accepting their judgements can work by politely turning it around can help. I appreciate your suggestion but it does not fit my goals in life. I accept that you wouldn't do things this way but it is my preference. Thank you for the advice but it really does not feel right for me. I understand your judgement but still choose to do this my way. I would appreciate your support in my current endeavor. Kind regards,Dickons
I have one brother, that whew, he just isn't like me at all. I often wonder how he grew up in the same family as myself and my baby brother. At this point my life goals are just so different from him that I basically only communicate with him on a casual, very casual basis. I don't ask advice, don't involve him in discussions about choices or anything else. I'm sure he feels different from us, he is, and there is nothing wrong with that, he is who he is, which I work to accept, and believe me it is a challenge. Good luck.
I don't have anything in common with my adopted family. And, I think that it would have been sooo much easier if I was like them. I am 40ish and basically do not communicate with any of my siblings. It is sad. But, I know how you feel. Feeling bonded with your adoptive family helps heal the hurt of rejection. I do not have that bond and rejection still stings me to this day. And, it makes me fearful of social situations - anytime that I could possibly be judged. Kinda tired of it.....Tina
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You're not alone! I am in the same situation and also do not communicate with my Abro's at all. They're also 20 years older than I am, so there's basically a generation gap. I wish I could say that I've learned how to deal with it successfully, but, I haven't. I'm actually just like my Bfam, which has made me painfully aware of how different I am from my Afam. I'd be interested in hearing if anyone has any articles or books to read on the subject. Hang in there - I hope you can take some comfort knowing that you're not alone.
michellekr
I am frustrated, I am 50 years old and feel like I have been trying to please my parents and my family (sibs) for 50 years. I am not like them at all. I am creative, love animals...etc. My adoptive family are all anal professionals, planners to a fault and very judgemental...How do I break this cycle it is interfereing with my adulthood. MKR
michellekr
I am frustrated, I am 50 years old and feel like I have been trying to please my parents and my family (sibs) for 50 years. I am not like them at all. I am creative, love animals...etc. My adoptive family are all anal professionals, planners to a fault and very judgemental...How do I break this cycle it is interfereing with my adulthood. MKR
michellekr
How do I break this cycle it is interfereing with my adulthood. MKR
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borntampa1987
but now its something to laugh about. You just need to talk to them, and tell them how you feel!
I love your post - laughed out loud at some of it - I guess we can create a world that makes everybody happy. :-) - even adopted family when we do not share a lot in common. I only wish I could just break through my issues with bonding with others, opening up and trusting. I think it is hard for me to create strong friendships (that are not distant acquaintances - superficial) due to trust issues stemming from my adoption (STILL - 40 yrs. later -hard to believe). It makes for a lonely life sometimes, especially without family bonds with my own adopted family. I wish there was a support group face to face with adult adoptees. We certainly share a lot in common. Thanks again for your post. Tina
I completely understand how u feel, i've had that kind of relationship w/my adoptive fam. I never felt like they wanted or cared about who i really am, they just wanted me to be who they wanted. My aparents refused to come to my WEDDING bc i wasn't doing what they wanted & getting married at a catholic church. I cut off contact bc it was just the absol. last straw. My afather got sick w/brain cancer & died and NOBODY TOLD ME! I heard recently that my amother moved really close to me but there's no way i'm contacting her. Basically, i feel like my life really began once i got away from my adoptive fam. That was when i really felt free to be myself & not always fighting about who they want me to be. Once i got away i realized there's nothing wrong w/me, there was something really wrong w/them. I'm ok w/who I've become & who I am but i will never be a part of their lives again. my advice to u is quit trying to please your afam, you'll never be what they want u to be and only be miserable. Do what makes u happy & your life will be so much better. Free yourself from them and free yourself:) good luck
i feel like im not even the same species as this family, ive been helping my adad for 3 yrs now since my amom died, and this family has gotton so beyond bizzare and petty since she died, its really kinda throwing me for a major loop here, see, i was never made to feel adopted all my life, until mom died. not one person asked me how i was doing, or said they were sorry,hugs, none of that. it was the very day of her funeral that i became 'the adopted kid' so what do i care if she just died, right? wrong! she was till my mom! so ive been careing for dad, this house was beyond tore up from my abrother, who was abusive, so ive been basicly remodling here, the wallpaper in every room had to be removed, walls repainted ( i used a mold resistant paint this house smelled so bad) ive replaced the carpets, taken no less than 7 truckloads of trash and rotton items from this house, no less than 12 truckloads of overgrown stuff from the yard, and mind you, this is a 2200 sq ft house! its huge! so ive finally got it back up to code.. cool. that made me feel a bit proud. but recently i got sick, cancer on my overies i need an operation to remove my overys.. so dad throws me out of the house, cancels my credit card ( that I pay on) and leaves me stranded out of town!! my nefew just went through cancer and the whole family has done everything including fund raisers for him, but not one person can even call and ask if im still alive even? dont get me wrong, im not jelous, im hurt! i wouldnt treat a paid servant like this, and they call themselfs family? i wasnt taught respect or empathy from them, but its in me. i read people very well, but ill admit i didnt see this coming. i would never turn my back on somebody that has helped me, thats why i came here and gave up my life to help him, but theyre quick to toss me out 'in the name of God' no less.. they claim to be good God fearing folks, they would help a stranger in need, but not the adopted kid... im sorry, im snivling here, i just look at people and shake my head. i dont get it. maybe it me, the whole world is becoming greedy it seems. buto turn on so called family, to exclude me and ignore me is mean. why do i have respect in me but its a alien concept to them? i dont know...sorry if i posted this in the wrong place..
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I know exactly how you feel. I always describe myself as the "black sheep" of the family. I always feel like I can't be myself around them. My abrothers and I all really have no relationship. I get along with my amom, but we don't have a bond. I can honestly say I do not feel love for her. I am supportive of her during a difficult personal time and care about her as a person. I primarily do it out of obligation rather than feeling the desire and want to. We are all pretty much emotionally isolated from each other. I am closer to my sister in laws than my own family and sometimes they are the first people I want to find out when something good happens. I hate that we are like this and that I feel the way that I do. But we can't really help that now can we? I'm just glad to know I'm not the only one with these kinds of issues.
I too feel like a completely different person from the rest of my aFamily, but then that is the key. I AM a completely different person! I remember in my teen years trying to explain to a very frustrated aMom that I was my own person, with my own thoughts and beliefs, and own likes and dislikes, and own interests. Oddly, my aMom and aDad are total opposites of each other and I am somewhere in between their styles. Try living in a household of 3 where between you, you have very little in common as a group. Picking a restaurant, music in the car, or an activity as a group...hell. I told her I felt it unfair that they were trying to mold me into being just like them, someone I wasnt. Her snappy retort was basically that I could be like them but I was too stubborn. So sorry! I have found that we are more accepting of each other as the years have passed. I feel bad for my aMom because she must have had other hopes or expectations for us with the adoption, but I dont feel bad that I am me.