Looking for my Biological Grandparents and their family

So, I looked online, and basically I am going to have to petition a court or get some kind of order since my family tells me it was a closed adoption. For all that wonder, here is my back story: I am a 34 y/o guy with a wife and 3 kids. My daughter from my first marriage lives with her mom and my 3 year old and special needs step son are at home waiting on me to come back from deployment. In the first part I told you the names of my dad, and his adoptive mother and father. His mom is in her 90's now and lives in a assisted living center in jonesboro. i never knew his adoptive dad, Clarence, but i did know he was like the 7th of 11 kids, possible born to an emma mcpeak brietz. I think he had a sister named lizzy brietz. Anyhow, my dad recently turned 67. He wont tell me anything, and his sister cathy (who has been married twice and has 3 kids of her own) says the adoption was closed and no one knows. She is probably right, but hates that I want to know this. Me, well...I have always wanted to know my heritage and where my ancestors come from. I want to know why I look the way I do. I long to know these things for my own reasons. Apparently, I long for this all by myself. It is a lonely feeling. Part of me says "just be happy with what you have" and part of me wonders what the missing link is. I might can get some non descriptive info from the courts for the sake of medical records..i dont know. I do not question why this woman put my dad up for adoption, for she is probably dead. I just want to know who she was and what she looked like. What bothers me is since i have found out that my dad and his sister were adopted, and since i have found out all the rules, I may die without knowing, and with me, dies the only chance for anyone to ever know, for my siblings do not care. Maybe i am silly for wanting to know and caring so much. Maybe i should let it be. My heart wants to know.

You aren't wrong for wanting to know your ancestry. I hope you have success going through the state. You could also look into supporting adoptee rights activism in that state to reverse the laws. There is also a chance that petitioning a judge to open the records may (big may) be successful but would assume your dad would have to initiate that or you would have to wait until he passes - the reason I say you may be successful is that there is a good chance the records were not sealed away from the adoptee until years after the adoption and they did it retroactively. Good luck,Dickons

Thanks. I am so tired of people telling me to just be satisfied with having a good family etc. stuff like "i never had grandparents and i turned out ok, so what is your problem?" or "what? i am not part of your heritage? you don't love your grandma/pa?"This is what the last few years have been like for me anytime I ask "the question." People, if you read this, please do not say these things to your kid. It hurts our feelings. Sometimes, we are just curious. We don't love you any less.

So, it is 2015. I never heard back from that family after I contacted them. I guess they think I am lying. I found my biological family (for all intents and purposes) and they disowned me. Such is life. I love you too smackover!