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I have had a year of the adoption rollercoaster. I found my birthson and found out I have a 1/2 brother that I have also had a reunion with. The reunion with my son has really had some highs and lows but right now I am on a high. He is struggling to keep a job in the state he is in. We had our first reunion on his birth day in July that was both great, stressful followed by very hurtfull.(see other posts by me) Now we are talking almost every day and he is asking for advice. Sometimes I have to remember to reel my emotions in because I have this tremendous need to mother him. I know I was really intense and felt the need to email him every day just to tell him how much I loved him and missed him every, that was way too much for him. He asked me not to email him till he was ready. There is a lot more to the story but we are in a much better place now. He plans on coming here at the end of January to see if he can find employment. If he gets some leads, then he will be moving here at the end of February. I am excited and apprehensive all at the same time. My apprehension lies in the fact that I DO want to mother him. I've waited 24 years to be a mother to him. So I am just going to take things one day at a time. There is always the possibility that he won't come here. I am just thankful he is turning to me for guidance and advice.
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