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Today is my 41st birthday...my first birthday since finding my birthdad. I'm sad he never reached out to me today to wish me a good day. His family has made any contact with me impossible for him. I want to he angry and hate the rest of his family, but I can't...it would be the easy thing to do, but I want him in my life...after so many years of not caring, I care so much now that it hurts! I continue to hope and pray that love and understanding will prevail, but, for today, I'm just sad...
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Thank you! I, too, am glad to have connected with you.
I can't verbalize these feelings to my bdad or his wife as any contact with me spins his family out of control and I can't do that anymore (the rollercoaster).
I think we - all of us - can help each other a lot through this forum! Peace to you.
I know exactly how you feel. I have found my birthparents and they married each other. I have not received a phone call or a card in the 15 years since I've been reunited. I call or email and wait for a response. It's extremely hurtful but it's the way things are. I am ready to move on and concentrate on my Aunt; my father's sister and let them deal with why they haven't heard from me. I get stupid emails every now and again that someone sent my birthmother. It's enough to make me want to scream. I would rather have one sentence that's from her. I know what you mean about not wanting to care but you do anyway. It's hard. I wish I had the solution for you. Take what you can from the information you have and see if anyone out there is ready to develop a relationship with you. Be honest about what your expectations are right from the start.