Reunited now for 10 years..

This year 2012 marks 10 years that I have been reunited with my birth family. It's been a long journey discovering the person I may have been. I am at peace with all my discoveries. Both biological parents had passed before I became reunited with "the family's".. I missed them.. Never got my time with either of them. I will never know if they ever thought or wondered what became of me. I am at home with both biological family's. I love them both dearly. My life as the girl I grew up as changed in many ways. My relationship with my adoptive parents has fallen to pieces. It will never be the same. My adoptive parents are in their 90's and memory is failing them. At times I wonder if I was ever meant to have any parents at all. I often think what I thought i had as a child was all a dillusion. I was loved, but not embraced. Things change over the years. Sometimes it is not for the best. I struggle with forgiveness on many levels. I survived adoption.. It is something that I am reminded me everyday. I survive it everyday. Wake up -- carry on -- survive adoption -- go to bed. I am still looking for some peace with it all. 62362