Obsessing

January 27, 2012

To explain things thus far would be a very long post so I'll just sum it up by saying that I did actually hear from the amom regarding my letter. We exchanged a couple of emails and she told me that she wanted to get together in person to talk about our son. That she felt email was to impersonal. She also told me that he is struggling and she had to make the tough love choice of sending him to live with his father. That she would discuss it further with me when we met. It has been almost 2 weeks since her last email telling me she would call me soon to set up a time. I have been waiting by the phone since. I even sent her a follow up email to no response. I'm frustrated and feel really disappointed again. I talked with my father who told me that for whatever reason she can not follow through with me. From the gate going back on our agreement, to years later her telling me that she would send me one last picture and letter and then nothing, and now this.

I feel so incredibly sad. Maybe she just needs time but I dont understand, if she wasn't ready then why did she even mention it?? She could have just ignored me. And to tell me that he is struggling and got into some trouble.....makes me worry, though I know I dont really have a right to worry I still am :-( I feel like my feelings are all over the place and wish she would just let me know.

I needed to vent.....my heart hurts so badly right now.

LLise8153

January 27, 2012

I think that you have every right to worry, just because you were led to a place where you had to trust your most precious, can't think of the word, not possession, not really gift, but anyhow,..your child , to another family to raise that in no way means that you ever have to stop worrying about him! Maybe, if you live in the same town you could send her a text or email, or phone message saying something along the lines of, "I am really worried about what is going on, I will be at ______ <insert place and time, eg: starbucks at 12 o'clock on monday> if you could possibly spare a few minutes to get together and talk about what is going on and what we can do to help him, that would be great" and then hit where ever you choose and see if she shows up. She may welcome someone else taking charge for a minute, because it seems like it could be very hard for a woman to have to admit that they were unable to solve whatever problem their child is having. Do you have any kind of relationship with the adad, maybe you could contact him and see if he will tell you what is going on, because me personally, I would rather know one way or the other what exactly the problem is, because I have a stupid vivid imagination and there is no telling what my mind would come up with. And it may be that having contact with his birth mom would help with whatever is going on. I really do hope that things work out for you!