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Phunkz, Welcome...I am sorry you didn't always know. I am going to use common terms enclosed with " " that you can search for futher details on it if you want. What your mother did was an attempt to ensure you didn't feel different. Back then many felt we were "Blank Slates" and were the product of nuture. Whether to tell or not was in-flux in the professional world when you were born. Based on being from the "Baby Scoop Era" - 1947 - 1973, most likely, your mother was unmarried and why you were surrendered at birth for adoption. That is the predominant reason why most of us from that era were adopted out. It had absolutely nothing to do with being wanted or not, it was the reality of the times that good girls did not raise their illegitimate babies. The societal mores did not believe it was acceptable. The reality faced was to be shunned to greater or lesser degrees by the good folks in town. The social supports available today were virtually non-existent, and at the time most poor families were helped from "community chests" that were overseen by upstanding members of the community, who doled out money raised within the community to those who were needy and also deemed worthy (I doubt many would have helped unwed mothers). The availability of renting was hit and miss in different areas of the country if you were an unwed mother. The job protection that exists today did not back then - your mothers fall from grace probably meant job prospects were few and far between. Day care did not exist because mothers stayed home and relied on baby sitters in their neighborhood for the one-offs. You were in the tail end of the "BSE" but times were still so different despite it being the late 60's. Seeing as you were adopted through a lawyer your mother did not go to a maternity home, but likely was sent away under the story of caring for a sick relative in another city. She would have been told to return home and never speak about it again, and that she had no right to search for you and would not have known who you were adopted by. She would have only had your birthdate and place of birth to search from. Sometimes the birthdate got changed but unlikely in your situation and time frame. The place of birth could also be changed depending on the laws in the state at the time, that ability still exists in New Jersey today, at the time of adoption it can be changed to where the adopting parents live. Crazy and wrong. I don't know what else I can say to help you understand that it isn't as black and white as being wanted or unwanted. You need to do some real research on what happened back then. Society ruled. Australia is apologizing for how they treated mothers and they reference that era as "Forced Adoption". I think the best book to read is "The Girls Who Went Away" by Ann Fessler. She is an adoptee who interviewed many mothers from that era. I think every adoptee from our era needs to read the book. Below is a link to her website - you can order the book in any bookstore if they don't have it in stock. She has also done a documentary that is being shown around the country right now and details of it are on the website including a trailer. [URL="http://agirllikeher.com/"]A GIRL LIKE HER[/URL] There is also The Adoption History Project website - it is the University of Oregon that is a wonderful source for info. [URL="http://pages.uoregon.edu/adoption/index.html"]The Adoption History Project[/URL] There are several adoptees like myself from your era the site - stick around... Kind regards,Dickons

Phunkz, I answered your post, but the computer doesnt recognize your name.Drop me a note thru e-mail and I will answer. My e-mail address is posted in my first response and again on my latest answer.Bob

*Raising hand as a BCE from 1961. Mine was a non-blood relative "family" adoption. I just found out 3 weeks ago today, and my adoptive father (with Lewy Body Dementia, but some coherent moments) still does not know I found out. My adoptive mother has severe dementia and just knows I "belong". Dickons - thank you for your many resources. I will post my story.

"She is going through some major personal life issues at the moment, and I feel guilty, or wrong somehow, for pushing the issue right now."Oh man, I hear you loud and clear. My adoptive mother was the same way. There was always a can of snakes that kept her from telling me.If your mother has information; lay it out to her. Tell her that you need to know, reassure her and get whatever information she has. She may not know it now; but in the end she will feel better. They keep it usually out of some hidden fear that you will skip along and forget them.We all know that's not true. I spent almost a year reassuring my adoptive mother after I found both my birthparents. Licking the narcissistic wound is what that is. Basically the bulk of us who were adopted tip toe around every one else's issues while people tromp through ours.Stand up and take care of what you can. It's your right as a human being on this godforsaken ball of dirt to know who you are. Your heritage. Your ethnicity and who is out there who may need you or you may need.Listen, if they reject you it's their loss. We need to be strong and to insure we are not left in the dark. I deserved and you deserve it. Go for it.Take the risk. It's worth it. At the very least you will know of whence you came from the horses' mouth or at least from one of the herd. Be brave and God's speed.

Sorry if I sound like a spoiled brat, arrogant, ranting menopausal female. It's just that I am. ;) At least when it comes to this topic. It drives me stark raving mad because I've been there, done that and have a closet full of tee shirts.I feel like Lieutenant Dan on top of the crow's nest in Forest Gump....ranting and raving with no legs...sceaming "bring it on" to God or whoever manufactured all this mess.We tip toe and skate around everyone else's feelings trying to be the best little boy or girl for years, decades because we have been brainwashed into feeling beholding to people. It's all a load of bunk.We were infants. We had no power or choice in the matter and it's about time we spoke up.

Thanks for all the feedback and information... after thinking about things, I believe I feel alot better about this whole thing. Murphymalone... you don't come off as a spoiled brat to me! I truly appreciate the Lt. Dan routine (Forrest Gump is my favorite movie of all time.... next to blues brothers anyway!) I appreciate your courage and will draw from it as I progress through this endeavor! Dickons --> Thanks so much for the resources and advice. After reading your thoughts I do understand a little bit more and had not considered the social fators of the time. Drywall --> Will message you soon. Mutinywxgirl--> Sorry to hear about your adoptive parent's issues. I can only imagine how much this complicates your situation. I hope you find peace in whatever comes out of this for you.

It's pretty normal to have ups and downs. There are days when I can keep things in perspective and there are days when I am completely frustrated. I try to keep in mind that I am not alone in all of this. I wonder how people can be so oblique and not realize how hard it is for those of us who are kept in the dark. It's like chasing a shadow. You see glimpses and you know there is a source but things keep shifting. What kills me is that people who have had the right to know all of the things we ache to know are so flippant. Families protect those who were adults and made decisions. It makes us feel like second class citizens begging for crumbs. The level of entitlement to privacy for people who have all the answers outweighs our "need to know". That's what drives me crazy. How are one groups rights so embedded. When the family member I contacted said smugly "They have a life you know" I lost my mind. It's a good thing there were many miles between us at the time. To this day I would love to download all of the years of frustration and let her have it verbally. It would nothing more than an exercise in frustration. I am pretty sure her mother made a few bucks from my adoptive parents and that's why she kept her silence. Private adoption but the person who arranged it was my great Aunt and the woman who said that would have a been a cousin of some description. My adoptive parents at that time were fairly well off. The secrecy is rooted in shame. Small town, small minded business that assumes the woman must bear all the shame. My birthmother was likely smothered in this crap. The idea that a statement like "They have a life" is so simple minded that I can't believe the woman has two brain cells to rub together. What does that mean? Does it mean their life is more important than mine? What a clueless statement to make.

I read this quote many times over. It rang true with me. Its like my feelings and what is best for me, my inner peace, and healing my soul are not as significant as the feelings of others involved in my adoption.

Hi. I just read your post. I always wonder the same exact things. I sent away for my medical records (I was born in IL). I found out nothing because either my birth parents did not want to sign off or they are deceased. The only thing that was confirmed was their ages and what hospital I was born in. It's a lonely, empty feeling. I can so relate.

MRKassel, For what it's worth, I found my bson by registering on the a.com website knowing only his birthdate and the hospital where he was born. He had registered years before I found it. Your bparents may well not know they can give permission for the hospital to release the information. Even in the early 70's we were told to go on with our lives and "forget" about the adoption (fat chance)! Sadly to all of you who were adopted, it was most often done in the hopes that you would be "better off." Society has changed so much in the last 40 years that it's hard to describe what it was like then. I wanted my son to have 2 parents who wanted him and were ready to parent. Sadly of course he grew up believing that I didn't want him. Blessings on your journeys.

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