Will it ever happen?

Hang in there. I know from where you stand it looks like everyone else in the system gets their forever child faster than you do, or at the very least they get SOME kind of placement before you. I don't know what the reason is, but what I have learned over the last four years is that some people get that first call two days after being licensed and it ends up being a child they adopt, and then other people wait up to two years before they receive any placement, and it may be another two years before there is any kind of permanent placement. Although it can seem like a platitude on this forum, what I can say with certainty is that the waiting and the frustration is all worth it in the end. Don't give up hope, and keep on working with your CW to make sure your name is getting out there with the placement workers.