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I just gave my little angel up for adoption, to this really sweet and caring gay couple I found. it all happened 6 days ago, I gave birth to him 10 days ago, and spent 4 days in the hospital recovering and spending time with him, I loved it but hated it sooo much because I knew it would make me get even more attached to him and make it even harder for me to give him away.... and when the last day at the hospital came I was laying in the room all alone on the bed with my baby in my arms, I broke down crying!!! like so hard, never cried like that in my life... I felt like I was mourning somebody that died, like he was being torn from me. and all my baby did was look up at me with his big eyes and cute little nose. just looking so innocent like reassuring me that everything was going to get be okay. ive cried everyday since, whenever I look at the pix and videos, and whenever I think if it was the RIGHT decision or not. sometimes I just want to get him back because he needs to be with me. but is that right? or am I just being selfish and not thinking about his needs because I cant provide for him like deserves. I just really miss him, and this is the hardest thing ive ever done and probably will ever do...
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