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Hi, I started a thread in the "adult adoptees" section called, "stuck in the middle." One of the people there suggested I ask about it here to see things from a birth mother, first mother perspective.
It is not a happy subject though, just be forewarned.
My husband passed away, he was adopted, he was given a letter and contact info in an envelope when he was 18, but, he was resentful and wanted to prove his love to his adoptive family by not ever opening it. He told me he never read it, but, instead hid it. We had a daughter together and he let her know how he felt about his adoption and showed her the movie, "Meet the Robinson's" so she may accept his point of view and just be appreciative to the Afamily and not have a need to know the birth family.
He never wanted to talk about the issue, but, in the last year of his life he started having some major issues and started reading psychology books including, "The Primal wound" He was very upset and more angry after reading that. He passed away that year.
When my daughter found out that he died, she asked me what her real last name was, and then asked me, "Don't you think they would want to know I exist?" I was shocked because she never talked to me about this subject before. She had held in all her perceptions until he was gone.
I stupidly brought this up to the Aparents to get their perspective and asked them, "shouldn't we notify his birth parents?" and they told me No, I shouldn't mess with things and that it would only hurt them to know. Maybe they thought I wanted to meddle, but, I was asking them because I didn't know what to do to help my daughter with her questions.
I see things differently, much more like my daughter.
So it's been a while since he passed now, we are more stable, and have moved on quite a bit. But, I can't close his life because of this issue. My daughter wants me to contact the birth parents and tell them about her.
She is the sweetest girl, and she is now a teenager. She has lost several family members, and the Afamily is fading away from her. She has mentioned that they treat her cousins differently and that she noticed we are not invited to a lot of family things now. They see it as "not making things complicated." When our grandmother died, I asked to go to the funeral and they said no. I think it is because of the pain it causes them to even see or talk to us. They prefer not to even talk about my husband, only like one comment a year. It is stifling. They also have taken family items from us and gave them to their other blood family members. They never come out and say it, but, I can feel it. And my daughter can as well.
So, I try to not challenge them and accept that things are just different now and I let them do the inviting, I try to ignore all the pictures on facebook of their get togethers which we normally would have been invited to.
I can't change how they feel and that's okay, it's a hard situation. I can't talk to them about this.
I found out that I could legally search for the bparents, I hired a mediator, and she found them. I think they live in my town. I don't think they are married, but, the man did know about the birth. So now I am supposed to write a letter to the birth mom. I have written about five versions and none of them seem right.
I don't know how she will feel, or exactly what to say. My daughter wants me to do this for her and she wants to be known and to know who they are. I feel insecure about writing a stranger with this news. I want to be sensitive to their feelings. I also think they should have been notified immediately, but, I was in no shape to handle that, let alone anything back when this happened.
I want to do the right thing for my daughter and I want to know what a birth mother or father's feelings might be about receiving a letter like this. I feel selfish even asking any of you. If you have any input, please let me know.
In the first thread, I did get some good advice so far, mostly about not saying too much too fast, and respecting their choice not to proceed at all, not giving them much in the first letter until I find out if they even want to know more.
I guess my question is, would you be offended receiving a letter from an adoptee's wife? Would you appreciate knowing if something bad had happened? Would it be worth it, if you could know your granddaughter existed?
I have only talked to one birth mom personally, who lost a child, in a similar way, and was notified by phone, by the Amom. And she told me she was glad she knew the truth, she always wanted to know him and the truth.
Before I write to this woman, I want to be prepared, and empathetic to her feelings. I don't want to make it worse.
I also need to step up for my daughter, and not chicken out. But is this the right thing? My daughter is prepared for rejection or reunion, she has a great open mind. She also chose not to wait because she doesn't want them to die before she gets a chance to meet them.
I am an adoptee but may I ask a question? Do you know what happened to the letter your husband received?
(Btw to me the presence of a letter written at birth does give the impression that the bparents might be welcome to contact but of course one can't say that for sure)
Also (((hugs))) at the loss of your husband.
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He told me that he hid it, where no one would ever find it. Within days of his passing, his parents came in and took all my papers and went through my files. They organized everything and returned it in boxes. They said they were looking for the will. I realized a year later that his briefcase was missing. I never asked them about it, and I doubt they found the letter. He had opened the locked case in my presence earlier that year. So I don't think it was in there. But, it shows me that they did take things without my permission. I am not sure if they were looking for the letter or not. I never saw it. I did find some weird things written in a sort of code, in his phone, and his friend told me he had a safe deposit box somewhere, but, I never got a statement for it.
I always wondered if he did open it and didn't like the response he got, and maybe that's why he was so angry. I wish I knew.
I agree with Susie. I would also want to know my bson is dead, even though that would hurt. One of my current delights is getting to watch my bgrandchildren grow up. For me, love is unconditional and is multiplied by having more grandchildren to love. (I currently have 13 grandchildren of whom 8 are biological -- including 3 of my birthsons. I had to stop and figure out how many are step btw)
Kingstonrule
I am an adoptee but may I ask a question? Do you know what happened to the letter your husband received?
(Btw to me the presence of a letter written at birth does give the impression that the bparents might be welcome to contact but of course one can't say that for sure)
Also (((hugs))) at the loss of your husband.
I wouldn't promise that the letter means they want contact later. My first mom wrote a letter and now denies that I am hers.
To the OP:
As a first mom, I'd be thrilled to have that kind of contact. Family is family is family. Like my mom says, we add and subtract all the time.
To clarify OP, I am adopted and a placed my only child for adoption.
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I'm the one who suggested fragilemirror post over here.
Knowing that some b-parents do not want contact and may not want to know any negative details, would you all agree that she shouldn't say that he has died in the first letter? Our thoughts over on the adoptee side are that some parents do not want contact for whatever reason and may become upset if they are told upfront that their son has died when they were happily oblivious and wanted to remain that way.
I know that we are a skewed group on this site. We're b-parents and adoptees who generally want contact. But, I am just thinking about the other side: those who don't want to know.
I definitely believe they have a right to know about their son. But, DO they want to know?...
Again, I'm all for the letter and allowing your daughter and you a chance to know her b-relatives. But, for me, it's about the timing of when to tell them.
I can only speak for myself as a natural mother, but I would absolutely want to know if my son passed away. I am not sure how I would want to receive this news, and have no clue as to how you should best approach this, but absolutely I'd want to know and I'd also want to know my granddaughter.
I am sorry for your loss.
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For many years, I was haunted by not knowing whether D was alive or dead. For me, not knowing is the most difficult thing. I had to tell D that his natural father had died of cancer which was difficult to do. I wasn't sure how or when to tell him,but in my case I waited until he asked about him.
May I suggest that you write the letter to inform them that they have a grand-daughter who would like to get to know them and that part of her dad's heritage. You don't even need to mention her dad's death or his attitude in the first letter. Just say that you understand that they are the birth parents of ____ (husband's name) who was born on _______ at ____ hospital. Then tell them of your daughter's desire to get to know them.
I thought about that, but, I think she might be confused. I don't want to mislead her either, or excite her that she may get to meet him. or make her ask me. She might think I don't think that would be important. I guess I just have to do it, write from my heart, and see what happens.
I ended up reading my mom, the two letters I wrote, and she sorta liked the first one, but, the second one she totally vetoed. I can see her point and I took her advice.
I hope if she is interested, she will want to focus on my daughter, which is a happy subject. But, I don't see getting anywhere until the notifying part is finished and she gets time to think.
thanks for your reply
I'm an Amom so I don't have the bmom's perspective; whether your husband wanted contact or not was up to him and he had it his way. Now it's your daughters choice and she deserves to have that side of the family (proving all parties agree to contact). I would write them a simple note card explaining that your bson's wife; you would like to make contact and give them your number. If they call explain the situation honestly and openly and let it occur naturally from there.
I wish you and your sweet girl the best of luck.
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