So much has happened...long thread.

I haven't even been on here to read posts in over a month. So much has been going on. First of all, my 25 year old son died on 11/22. He fought a long, and hard battle against Cystic Fibrosis, but finally got tired and gave up the fight. I was able to spend his last week with him in the hospital, taking care of him, and just being with him. I knew when he called me to come and stay with him that it was the last time he would be in the hospital. He knew that it was the end for his. His condition declined rapidly after I got there with him. I only had a few days with him that he was able to talk to me. He wanted to talk about all the previous talks we had about his plans and what he did and didn't want. He wanted me to know what to do with this things. He wanted me to know that he loved me and that I had been a wonderful mother to him. Eventually he was on a ventilator and he was no longer able to talk to me, but I still talked to him. I still took care of him, and I was still there by his side. I also still made the decisions he had left me in charge of making. His grandmother, Aunt, and sister, were able to get there and spend some time with him. The first night my sister and daughter had been in from CO, and my daughter had spent most of the day with her brother, he left us. When she left for the hotel that night, and I went to talk to him, I knew he was gone. I think he held on long enough for his little sister to get there. I followed through with his wishes and had him taken off the vent. Now, a couple weeks later, my sister and I are looking at taking my grandchildren from my daughter before the state does. My daughter is an alcoholic, and has steadily been making a mess of her life. Long story short, we may now be looking into Kinship care instead of regular foster care. My daughter also just found out after getting back to CO from here that she is pregnant again. UGH!